Impost syndrome around trauma

The first time I went to a psychiatrist she diagnosed me with cPTSD (or PTSD since it's not DSM approved) and some other things. I dismissed the cptsd because that doesn't apply to me. I thought I don't get flashbacks, my trauma is not as valid as other. The things that were said to me, being told I was unwanted and told I shouldn't exist and being scared to even express an opinion on fear of retaliation, that's normal. Being dismissed as crazy or dramatic when I sought help from those meant to protect me and facing more retaliation for seeking help, I felt like that was normal.

This weekend I had a breakthrough. I realized it is trauma and it's something I need to address. The constant memories of voices that echo in my head, those are flashbacks too. The symptoms align. Something did happen. It's not all in my head....it's validating but I'm so sad for my childhood self.

It's a bittersweet victory but I think I'm further along on my path of healing. I'm aware and becoming okay sharing it.