ADHD tax is exhausting

I just gotta vent about this where people may get it.

I hate ADHD tax. I feel like a failure every time it happens. Every time I find that bag of defrosted meat for a forgotten dinner plan and I've found the bag when it's JUST gone bad.

The sheer overload of peanut butter in my house- I haven't bought any in 4 months. My daughter uses it daily. I still have 3 giant sized jars.

The ENERGY tax when you finally get up, make food, and go to eat the food and it turns from "this is going to be amazing" to just the taste and texture making me want to vomit.

The mental tax of my brain never being quiet.

Buying too much at stores is a problem with impulse control so I order in, then people judge you for using delivery services for groceries. But if you make a mistake from impulse control issues at the store, or forget what you need, you're judged for not trying hard enough or spending excess money. So I only get groceries from delivery services because if I walk into a store I can't handle the input from the world and impulse control is even harder to work with.

ADHD tax is just hitting my emotional state lately. Never good enough and it's not even my fault.