I can't stop crying

Ever since I took action (context on my last post) I haven't stopped crying over the stress, my eyes are so tired, you can see I'm just broken in million pieces, everything hurts and it's so difficult, I just wanna grab a brush and paint all of what I'm feeling.

I'm so hurt, I grew an attachment to my stepfather even though he's an abuser, now him not even looking at me kinda hurts.

I'm sorry for the vent-ish post.