Was anyone else an unhappy youngster who never thought they'd live past 18, and now you're nearly 30 and completely unprepared?

My thinking and emotions feel so stunted, and I know it's trauma, but there are so many things I never thought I’d have to face that now terrify me.

The idea of my family passing before me, my body slowly deteriorating until everything hurts, the mess the world is in, the pressure of deciding about having kids as a woman, knowing time is ticking, global warming, retirement plans, working just to survive, and more.

I'm medicated and stable, I've achieved a lot, I have a loving partner and family, but I just feel so numb. Is this really what I was meant to stick around for? It all feels overwhelming.

The only people I’ve spoken to who are happy they survived their struggles make me feel even more alone.

0/10, wouldn't recommend. This is not what I signed up for