Lonely men, what keeps you going?

Hi all.

I'm a female but I am extremely touch starved and lonely.

The few things that are keeping me together at the point, are occasional hugs from friends/going to the chiropractor (truly shameful for me but helps).

Emotionally, it's the memories of my hair being stroked by an old flame and random sweet interactions.

Edit: thank you for all behind honest and all the good advice I've been getting! I'm reading every single comment and I'm glad I asked today!