How to be content being absolutely alone.

After a lifetime of therapy/meds/personal efforts I’ve realized I’m not built for friendship or relationships. I simply don’t have the ability or the skills. I’m 36 and have been in therapy for social and emotional troubles since I was 16. I’m still in therapy and taking meds but haven’t had much luck.

Since I don’t intend to kill myself, I’m left trying to figure out how to be completely alone. I have family that I spend time with out of obligation but I don’t enjoy it. Work has been a nice outlet.

To sum it up, there is so much focus to have meaningful connections in order to have a quality of life and I simply cannot achieve this.

How do you live a contented life in your own company?

EDIT: I know being alone is not ideal. It causes me stress and depression. I’m not ready to kill myself over this and I cannot be cured. So please don’t be cruel and scold me to socialize. I cannot. I promise.