One and done...

Hey guys! Anybody up late and want to vent with me? Tonight is one of those "uncomfortable " nights. I am tired. I dont want to play, i dont want to entertain. I dont want to do anything but relax! My girl is here jumping off my headboard.After telling her to stop the 5th time i gave up and let her continue😅 I got surgery on my arm 2 weeks ago and i am fatigued and supposed to be taking it easy. As you all know you cannot do that when you have a child with ASD. As the days go by I realize I truly do not want any more children. I think about how my life just feels frozen now. I havent really enjoyed my life since i became a mother. Its non stop and i just want to explode most days. Since i left her father things have actually been peaceful and i have no desire to even get into a new relationship until she's grown up. A part of me hasn't accepted this is my life yet. Pray for me. I am a 32yr old 90s baby thats just going through it😕. Anybody else have 1 child and does not feel the need to have more?