does anyone else feel like they can only feel comfy around other “broken” people?

it makes me feel manipulative, i probably am and i feel horrible for even saying it.

i want to make new friends but i can’t seem to open up fully knowing that potentially, someone who hasn’t gone through all that i’ve been through wont understand me.

for me my thought process of who i am is like, “i’ve gone through all of this horrible stuff, i would NEVER want to inflict it on others intentionally.” i feel like other people who haven’t been traumatized just CAN’T feel empathy because as soon as i open up or be the real me they’ll run away or show their true colors that they detest me. and i just hate that. another problem is i end up hurting other people anyways because of my splitting and outbursts, so i can't even keep to my own standards. i don’t really know what to do i can’t trust anyone else