Always tired so libido is low

Ugh!

I’m 6w5d and I have been absolutely exhausted!

So to top it all off I work 9pm-5am back in March I was working 6am-2pm I had finally got my first shit spot back in January because I was working 1pm-9pm since I first started at this job in July of 2023.

I had to switch to my 3rd shift spot because my husband has two kids from a previous relationship and we have 50/50 we live in a small town so everyone and their mother uses daycare. We called and even have been put on waitlists for them to be able to go to daycare so I can’t stay on the shift I worked so hard for.

So now that school has started I got home and get the kids ready for school, I don’t fall asleep til about 8-8:30 then I have to wake up around 1pm to get in the pick up line to get the kids. I go home and take a nap until my husband gets home. Since doing this I don’t good dinner much anymore and I also haven’t had sex in a while. I will add that over the year my libido declined a bit because of our TTC journey but I will also add that when I was on 1st shift my libido started to improve.

I’m always tired…and I mean always, the house doesn’t get cleaned like it used to, I don’t make dinner ask much before unless it’s a crockpot recipe that I can leave to have it cook. Sometimes my husband and I play fight and like we get rough and I’ll be like “F you” jokingly and he’ll say “I wish you would” and he will always say something like that because he will try to initiate sex but I’m either exhausted or in pain. I feel like he doesn’t get it and I’ve tried to explain it to him, I even tried to take vitamin that supposedly help your libido but they didn’t work.

I just tired, I feel like I let him down… sometimes he will come in the room and when he does it wakes me up, he will just stand there and look sad. I always bring it up but he always tells me nothing is wrong and he isn’t sad.

I don’t know what I need from this, I guess just to rant..

Also I always get the kids from school even when they are at their mom’s house. She finally got a job and so she can’t get them from school, she pays me $40 a week to get them for her and then we meet up on the edge of town for her to get them.