For me, diazepam is by far the best benzo.

Other options are okay, but they just don’t hit the same way. Take alprazolam, for instance—it tends to leave me feeling a bit dull and overly confident.

When I take diazepam, especially from my guy, I’m aiming for that deep, relaxed vibe with a FO attitude. At first, it brings a sense of calm, but then I find myself feeling more creative and clear-headed, making it easier to write and think. I also feel more in involved with my emotions, yet totally at ease.