Someone please validate me. Send me a hug. Anything.

I’m BURNT out to a crisp. Typically, I make sure my bf has balanced meals, I refill his water bottle, encourage him to journal / use his coping skills, I hold him when he cries but I’ve also learned to back off when he thinks I’m the spawn of satan. I remind him that he needs to take breaks from work and to limit his caffeine intake. But somehow I’m still the absolute worst person on earth lol 🤷🏻‍♀️ these last couple of days I can’t do it. I don’t even have energy to make myself dinner… and that makes me the worst person in his eyes of course.

I had a mini menty b and shut myself in a closet and cried while my bf violently deep cleaned the apartment. My abs hurt from crying in the fetal position. My neck feels like an ikea lamp (I don’t even know what that means I’m so delirious).

He just started taking medication for the first time a couple days ago after I advocated for him at his psychiatric appointment.

I’m a single mom, full time student, and I am solely responsible for taking care of three people- I come last of course. All I could do today was shower, do a meditation, then lay in bed and draw in my journal. All day long. It’s all I had in me. Please help. Someone. Anyone 🥺❤️🫶🏻❤️‍🩹💐