She’s gone for good

See previous posts for context. My BP ex came to get the rest of her stuff from our apartment she left me with to move home to her grandparents’. It was like talking to a ghost. She’s medicated, and almost seemed happy but had absolutely no emotions towards the situation or towards the fact she up and left me out of nowhere after supporting her for years and planning to get married. She was calm and didn’t cry even when I did which isn’t her. Barely acknowledged I was there. It was like seeing an acquaintance you’ve met once or twice. Before she left, she told me I was just a visitor in her life and her family was her care team now. Also said that this wasn’t damaged beyond repair but she hasn’t decided if she’d ever want to come back to it. I’m done. I know it’s over with but the coldness was gut wrenching. It made me feel sick knowing she was there and I didn’t even recognize the person I loved for 4 years. It’s like she lost all feelings in an instant.

ETA: she couldn’t even muster up more than a side hug after 4 years and 3 years living together. could barely look me in the eyes.

ETA: She didn’t even take it all, not even the things she said she was coming for. Took random shit and said she’d have to come back for the rest. She plans to throw a majority of her belongings away, including things she had before we met.