Upgrade worth it

I've been carrying a P365 Standard for the last 4 years. I had bought a Dagger from PSA last year and threw a cheap red dot on it and decided at that point that I wanted my CC firearm to have a red dot on it. For months I did my research and settled on the CR920 Elite from Shadow Systems. For months I was obsessed with that damn thing. I watched every video on it that I could. I compared specs to just about every other pistol in its class and was dead set on that bad boy. The day came when I decided I was ready to "pull the trigger" and purchase it. I went to a LGS near me that said they had them in stock, walked in in saw that sexy little beast in the case, the fella behind the counter pulls it out for me and I put that CR920 Elite in my hand and then, BAM! Just like that, months of fawning over the CR920 went right out the damn window. To me, it felt cheap and felt horrible in my hand. Like as if the grip was too square. It was like I spent months talking to a hot ass chick online and on the phone only to finally meet her and despise her immediately. I knew immediately that there was no way I was gonna like shooting that thing. Talk about a bummer! So I moved on to the other option I was looking at. The P365 X-Macro. Night and day fuggin' difference between the two firearms. I've heard A LOT of people state that they think the Shadow Systems firearms are "The best" concealed carry pistol on the market. I just don't see it. Sure, it looks GREAT. Has all those cool slide cuts, window cuts, bronze barrel, etc.. But all that glitters isn't gold. I'm sure this might ruffle a couple feathers for some bc I know a lot guys (and gals) get a major hard on for Shadow Systems but I'm just gonna come right out and say it. SIG Sauer is 100% superior. Sorry, not sorry. 🤣😂