update: one year sober

hey all... it's been a long time since i posted in this sub, and i wanted to share my story almost 3 years post-diagnosis! i was still in college when i got diagnosed, and for the next year and a half i tried playing the moderation game. it was the hardest thing i'd ever done, especially as someone who used to call weed the love of my life. every time i smoked, i remembered why i loved it so much, and craved it that much more. i went from smoking twice a week to three times a week. i didn't have another attack, but since my alcohol use rose with the tanking of my weed use, my hangovers got so much worse. my brain fog, too. after new years last year (or last last year, 2023), i had post-smoke clarity: i wasn't getting anything out of moderation. it was like going back to a shitty lover who hates you. it's been almost a year since i last smoked, and i am keeping it going strong. i work at a dispensary now, which is really funny, and actually makes me feel more rooted in my abstinence. exposure therapy, maybe. (that being said we just stocked a cart that's a cross between my favorite strains of all time, and i about dropped to my knees when i saw it.) ok long post over! thanks for the ride!