Hey guys, I relapsed..

Some of you may know me in here from either helping me talking to me or being helped by me. I was 38 days sober but I relapsed last night, simply because everyone around me smokes and lies about quitting. Every time I walk into my old room I see bowls packed halfway hit, old carts, new ones, bongs, everything that reminds me of my daily use. I was smoking about an 8th a day of pretty good high grade flower sometimes more, and finally last night while my friend was asleep in his room (Room mate) I went to my room to let him sleep and I saw a bowl he was hitting before about half way packed. I thought about it for a few hours and finally hit it. I didn’t even get high can’t even remember if I got buzzed or not. I did this not only because I was in doubt but also because I wanted to try moderation which so many people claim works for them. My sickness and abdominal pain set it about an hour-two hours later, I was having bad heat/cold fevers and all the normal stuff except for vommiting. The first time I got CHS which was about 40 days ago roughly I had food poisoning from McDonald’s and after about 5 days we knew it could no longer be food poisoning. I had many ER visits and we finally ruled out CHS. I decided to quit cold turkey from my pain being so bad so I did, and 38 days later I’ve relapsed. I just wanted to share my story for anyone who may be going through this or anything like It. I hope everyone in here is having a blessed start to their 2025❤️