bf forced me to watch r*pe scene in movie.

Edit 2. I left him https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/s/NzRMz3m3z1

Edit: the response from this post has been overwhelming, but not surprising, deep down I know I can’t stay. This particular incident happened about 3 months ago. There has been one other incident I question but other than that things have been relatively normal. But these two incidents really weigh on me. Leaving right now is currently not an option for me. But is definitely something going forward I will start planning. he works from home and I can’t just leave when he’s at work. I also don’t have anywhere to go. I’ll have to start looking for options. If anyone has suggestions I’d really appreciate them. Thank you.

R*pe is not a one time incident in my life. I can’t count the times.

My grandfather was responsible for the introduction of it, however it followed me through highschool into the ages of 19-22. I’m 24 now. I’ve been through years of therapy and genuinely have come to a place of acceptance that this is something I will live with. there are good days and bad days. That’s to be expected. I do my best to avoid topics or situations that trigger bad days. Conversations about rape culture or movies and shows with explicit scenes. I get EXTREMELY triggered with sudden r*pe scenes on tv.

I didn’t know that this movie has very graphic scenes like this in it. (It’s the girl with the dragon tattoo) I was enjoying the movie with my boyfriend when the scene happened. I immediately covered my eyes and put my head down. The sounds trigger me too but not nearly as much as the images. either way my bf who was sitting beside me on the couch he knows my past experiences and he knows my trauma. He grabbed my arms and forcibly took them away from my eyes. I still had them shut and my head down. He then transferred both of my hands to one of his and used his other to force my head up and said “your missing the best part”

I waited out the scene with my eyes closed while he held my hands and head up. His hand was so tight on my wrist it really hurt me. I didn’t want to allow my trauma to rise up so we finished the movie.