wanting to be treated like a baby

hey everyone, i hope this is truly a safe space because this is something that is really bothering me and i’ve always had problems with. i have underlying reasons to think that i was SA as a child as well as being abused/mistreated. i have ADHD and autism which kinda affects my memory. i have a weird (not rlly the right word) feeling towards baby items like bottles and diapers, whenever i cry i wanna cry like a baby does, when i hear a baby crying i get a weird feeling in my stomach, i want my girlfriend to baby me all the time, and it’s affecting other aspects of my life that i don’t think i can talk about here. i just wanna know if anyone else feels like this or has any advice? thanks💗