My physical therapist was shocked by how much trauma I've been storing in my body

Seeing a pelvic floor physical therapist yesterday was eye opening. I did not realize the magnitude of what I've been holding on to for so long: the physical abuse, emotional abuse, and likely sexual abuse.

I wasn't even breathing properly. My breath mechanics were off. She found tension around my ribcage almost immediately after applying her hand. She found my spine to be "stiff as a board".

She noted that I was holding onto so much, for so long. She was very adamant that I need to see a therapist.

She was supposed to feel my pubic bone, but I warned her about how aroused I get by being touched there. I'm hypersexual (because of trauma) and did not want her to be greeted with a tent in my pants.

The whole time I looked tense to her. I opened up a little bit. Not too much.

She gave me exercises to do and suggested breathing exercises when I work out.

I woke up at 1 AM this morning and thought I was going to die. I couldn't breathe. The work we did today scratched the surface