Did your parents betray you?

they never were there when i needed them the most. even in the most obvious or basic things like going to doctor, helping with homework, day to day routine. they gaslighted, they neglected, they abused and left me alone with my struggles, without resources and with damage instead of trying to be better parents. they would shame me because they couldn't accept their horrible, constant mistakes. they didn't choose to be bettter. they always chose to stay the same. every day, they would betray their child just to not make any attempts. they didn't want to try, they just were the same. ... it was difficult, wasn't it?