My cat died in a fire.. i cannot handle it

I lost my cat and everything else in a house fire.. complete loss. It’s been 6 months and i cannot get past it. She was the only reason i was staying alive in the first place. I tried to self delete but that only landed me in a coma and then in the hospital for a long time.. but now I’m out and i still can’t handle it. She was the only soul on earth i ever received unconditional love from.. (traumatic childhood-parents were extremely abusive). Is there ever a way to get past this? I really don’t want to be on this earth without her but i feel like i will just survive again if i attempt again ( did 3 things at once to make sure my survival rate was 0 and still survived) so i feel like there’s literally no way out. Nobody understands how much i loved her… i don’t know how to live or function