I don't get it... how can anyone actually believe the Bible? I want to know, please.

The contradictions, the hypocrisy, the illogical reasoning, the acts of hatred done by God, the encouragement of violence, the blatant racism, and then I'm supposed to believe that the man in which this story culminates is the embodiment of love and acceptance? Horseshit! I went to a private Christian school, and I used to get shamed for asking questions about the Bible's validity. Completely destroyed my faith. Please, somebody tell me what I'm missing. I genuinely envy you all, you have a reason for life. Tell me, please.