I can't no more

I was trading for the past 3 years and all was a big failure for me I made couple of thousands and ended up in losing everything I have now, Im thinking about dying everyday literally for the past 2 weeks, everything around me is just broken from losing all of my funded accounts to lose shi ton of money in crypto, Im near fkn zero now Idk what to do at all, I used to trade forex before then I switched to futures, I found success for a short time and then everything started to fall apart, I learned every possible strategy and I only used one because It just works for me simply Fib Retracment with S/R, Idk what is wrong, I really don't know what is happening, Im losing it, Any help please, I always told my self I will never give up on trading but I feel this js the end for me, there is no other way!

Idk how these people made to 10 or 20k per month on consistence basis like how they keep up with the markets, maybe because they are not afraid to lose more funded accounts as they can buy a replacement anytime but for me this time I can't because I invested every last fkn breath in trading and crypto.