Stomach feeling really bloated after purging

I (15F) haven’t purged in months. I’m not even sure if I’ve purged to such a degree that I’ve done tonight before. My stomach looks and feels super bloated, like visibly bloated. What does this mean? Am I okay? Will it go away soon? How do I make it stop? I’m really fucking scared right now and I can’t talk to my parents about it because they’ll kill me if they know I purged. I hate myself for doing this I hate myself so much but please I need to know if this will go away I can’t do this I’m fucking shaking right now please. I’m sorry if I sound insane but this is really distressing me. Please.