If I ate like my family, I'd be overweight

I hate that I still live with my family sometimes.

The only "healthier" foods my parents know how to make is chicken or salad. I'm sick and fucking tired of chicken and salad.

I want pasta. I want sandwiches. I want macaroni and cheese. But whenever my parents cook they find a way to add 500 calories through "healthy" additions like extra cheese, nuts, meat, etc. Like yes those things are healthy, but overeating only because a food is deemed healthy is just as unhealthy! I'm not going to stuff myself with cheese because I need more calcium of nuts because you think they're the best protein source (they're not).

I live with body builder's and runners. Of course they need more food and have a fast metabolism. I'm relatively sedentary. I'm short. I need less than them. It's not rocket science.

And yeah they know I have an eating disorder, had an eating disorder, whatever. But I'm weight restored and I just want to scream. Do they not realize that I don't need to be eating 4500 calories a day anymore?

But GOD FORBID I DON'T CLEAN MY PLATE! God forbid I stop because if I had another bite I might actually be sick. God forbid I don't eat something because I've actually been intolerant to it my whole life. God forbid I don't eat your deep fried chicken wings because they hurt my stomach.

So sorry guys, for not eating like you. Because when I did, I was overweight and constantly called fat and that I need to lose weight.