Is it weird that this sub triggers me?

Like I genuinely don’t get how people visit this place to feel better, everytime I leave here I’m set on relapsing. I think it’s especially those “unpopular opinions?” Threads since most of the time they boil down to “unpopular opinion, my ED makes me happy and it’s super awesome actually and being fat sucks”. Just read one and I don’t know if I’ll be able to eat today. This is no hate on this sub, it’s just a strange phenomenon for me.

To be honest, any ED space makes me feel significantly worse, even if it’s pro recovery. I just prefer doing my ED alone, cause when I get company it gets so much worse.