Erasmus Depression

It’s been about 35 days since I returned from Erasmus, and I haven’t been feeling good since. Yes, I missed my family and friends a lot and was excited to see them. I met up with my friends and told them in detail about my experiences, but I felt like none of them understood me or reciprocated my excitement. After that, nothing I did gave me pleasure, not even the activities I am passionate about. I constantly look at our pictures and videos. A song suddenly plays, a message comes, and everything reminds me of those days. You might say I’m exaggerating, but this is really how I feel. Every day was so full, and now I feel like I’m falling into a void in my current life. After all, it was a habit; I know it’s hard to break a habit. I miss everyone so much, even the times when we did nothing there. I think of practicing my instrument, but I can’t do it. I need to make a good plan and get my life in order, but I can’t start. I don’t know how to motivate myself. In my previous summer vacations, I wasn’t living so aimlessly; at least I was doing something. I was reading books, trying to exercise regularly, practicing my instrument, and trying to improve myself. If you asked me now which of these I’m doing, I’d say none. I don’t know where to start or what to do. I have so many emotions and so much confusion inside me. What should I do to not feel guilty and to feel good? I don’t know.