A question that might be difficult to consider...

If this is too triggering, please feel free to click away.

Do you think maybe your parents didn't want you to begin with?

I'm just wondering if there is a correlation between estrangement and if a child was wanted.

I know for myself, it might be the case. My mom and my bio dad were headed for divorce when I was conceived. She was cheating on him and she thought I was the other guy's (my future stepdad) kid. I don't think she wanted me. I remember pictures of the day I was born. My grandparents held me with love, but my mom didn't have that expression on her face. It was more neutral, like "what am I looking at?" When she saw me. Meanwhile, my younger half brother was planned and wanted. I was about 6 when he was born and they favored him so much. My mom never stopped baby talking him, even when he grew into his teenage years. Imagine Petunia Dursley with her son Dudley.

Fast forward decades later, I haven't talked to them in many years.

Anyways, I'm just wondering what your thoughts are on this.