I wish I had more energy

I feel so sad today. Fibromyalgia and burn out has caused me to not be able to work or study since 2018. I’m just home all day, and even then I can’t have too big goals because I just burn out . I wanna pursue art so badly. It’s my calling, and my passion. But I don’t have the energy. I tried once, just a couple of times a week for a few hours. I burnt out and didn’t draw for years. I wish I had the energy to study art, work with art, improve etc. But I feel like I’m cursed to only have it as a hobby. A hobby is fine, but it’s not enough. And the worst part is, it’s not like I’ll ever get a new life or a new body to try again. This was my only chance and I feel like my body betrayed me.