Is this normal?

Tomorrow makes 7 weeks since he passed. Up until this past week, I cried anytime I was alone. Every night on my way home from work, after putting my kids to bed, every morning, anytime I thought of him or spoke of him. This past week a numbness has set in and I’ve hardly cried at all. I still miss him and feel sad when I think of him, but I’ve got like super control over my emotions suddenly. I can laugh at a joke, but I’m not happy by any means. I can stop myself from crying when speaking of him and I feel it coming on. Is this normal? Is there something wrong with me? I feel guilty for not being so sad all the time. I’m not ready to be “ok” yet. He deserves more than a few weeks of tears. Even typing this, I would normally have tears streaming down my face, but nothing more than a little stinging in my eyes. It’s like I’m a robot. Am I in survival mode? Will my emotions come back eventually?