How many of you guys are heavily emotionally dependant on your comfort/fictional crushes?

So firstly for context, I’ve had this crush on this anime guy and I realized I had been for like FIVE years now, but over those years I’ve been able to diet better, save money better and work on myself more etc. It’s mainly because I have my mindset entirely surrounded by this fictional crush, everything I do is to make him “proud.” Like for instance, if I do my laundry he won’t think I stink or that he’s proud of me for doing my laundry, if I actually want to stop starving I should make a meal for myself because he’d be happy that I ate, if I actually stopped doomscrolling and did my homework he’d think I’m smart, if I brushed my teeth he’d want to kiss me, etc all of this just to feel emotionally and romantically fullfilled despite him being a fictional character.

But I’ve also realized how unhealthy this is but despite that I don’t really find myself craving another person’s vaildation romantically, like I don’t picture myself in a romantic relationship in the future, mainly because I’ve also realized I’d be fine single because I don’t feel like people meet my dating standards, etc. I feel completely fine like this, and it’s bettered my life. I don’t have to worry about finding a real romantic partner or worry about leaving a person because they want kids, etc. I don’t have to because I have him, (my fictional crush I’m too embarrassed to name) even though he’s fictional and I can’t really do anything physical to feel romantically physically fullfilled, whenever I play video games if I could I always try to mod the game to have like him in it as if he’s playing with me or just there with me. (Stardew Valley, Minecraft, Sims 4, etc.)