I've become racist towards white women and overall just disgusted by the vast majority of girls ever since college.

So my friends have made it clear to me that I am slowly becoming sexist and overall an incel. It has been about 5 months that I've showed any interest in women and I haven't asked a girl on a date since August. I'm going to attempt to make my thoughts clearer in this post but I've never put this into words so please bare with me.

I know this isn't normal but it's honestly just easier this way. Since I've gotten to college I've slowly began feeling myself hating women more and more, specifically white sorority girls. Every time I see their herds walk down the street at my campus I just feel disgust and resentment. It's been so bad that it made m start going to church for the first time in my life since I was like 7 to escape the degeneracy. the worst thing is they've even infected the church. I've spotted girls i overheard in my dorm about having body counts of over 30 at the age of 18 at church like nothing is wrong. They are also incredibly racist while at the same time trying to pretend like their woke; nearly comically so. Like all they do is talk about pushing for equality and stuff but the second a black person comes near they all get quiet and try to leave as soon as they can. It's so bad that I'm literally the only white person In my entire dorm that hangs out with black people in my dorm.(For added context our dorm has an entire floor dedicated to black students on scholarship so our dorm has a very established black community) it also feels like they all treat you as a r*pist all the time for no reason. I don't know why all of them act so uncomfortable around me and make everything weird. I will literally just be trying to mind my own business and do my school work when all of the sudden I get the most horrendous side eye imaginable. It's so annoying, especially if I'm in a big lecture and there is nowhere to sit except for next to a girl. Another note is that my classes DO NOT help with this problem in the slightest. Like 7/9 classes I'm in have had classes where they lecture about sexual harassment and male predators. Its feels very degrading and like the entire school is against me. I know I can't be as bad as I think I am however as nobody at church does this to me and I am well known around there. this also doesn't happen with the people that know me at my dorm as I still get invited out to parties all the time and hang out. My main group of friends i hang out with has 3 girls in it but I even feel myself hating 2/3 of them for different reasons. One of them dumped her previous boyfriend to be with one of my best friends and he's too blinded to see the many red flags there. The other one constantly insults me and treats me the same way the others do that I mentioned above, she also constantly calls me immature and weird while plenty of other people do and act just like me but she just ignores them to single me out for some reason. The only one that I do like is only because she treats me like an actual person and not some weirdo predator. I still wouldn't ever date her though, I value our friendship more than a relationship and we've both made that very clear to each other.

Ok back to the main rant I added this in after writing to give more context about my life situation.

Another note all of these girls in my classes are extremely wealthy and out of touch with reality. I'm talking like lawyer and surgeon money. They also are like 99.9 percent of women at my college as mine is one of the largest serority colleges in the u.s. you would think with a guy to girl ratio of 1:2 and the freshman class being over 10000 people it would be easier out here to meet someone but it honestly makes no impact. I've even felt myself becoming more racist towards white people over this. Ive honestly found it easier to to date mixed race because the girls don't cake themselves in rediculous amounts of makeup, they don't all share the exact same personality, and they aren't actively treating you like your some type of predator when you are near them.

However I know that it's wrong to feel like this and I need to change. It's really hard though because I feel like I'm being proven right. I guess the best way to explain it, is like.... You can just tell that all of these people are gonna be Karens when they get older, and it really feels like just about every girl at my college. Also I am generalizing ALOT and it's difficult to put every detail of my life that lead me to this conclusion into a single reddit post so I will try to add more context if needed. One more thing is I know I'm generalizing a ton but it's easier than getting into specifics about every single detail of my life since I was a chold. I tried going to therapy about this but all they heard was I had lots of friends and a support group and I didn't really sound like I needed therapy, I was really offended by that and haven't been back. I also still don't even understand how I'm supposed to even approach a girl Im into. It's been countless times where I'll see a girl in my class and be like "wow she's beautiful, too bad I will never get the opportunity to be with her" and then just move on with my day. I also don't care about race as much as I made it out in this post, I've just had alot of life changing events recently that's shaped my view on it this year so it's been something I've been more aware of them usual. I'm also not as selective as I made it out in this post when it comes to girls. All I care about is that they aren't shallow, dont wear excessive makeup and have a good personality. So once again to end this long and incoherent Tyraid, the main question I even have is,

How do I even go up and approach a girl? And how to I stop myself from hating women?

I also feel the need to say, no I'm not horrifically unattractive. (at least I don't think I am, I've heard many people say I am and plenty others say I'm not) Yes, I do go to the gym every day. I am still in shape and Yes I participate in plenty of activities. I also never had a girlfriend before as in highschool I had this same problem I just didn't know the scope of it yet because it was easier to approach people.