Face card is real, never experienced it, but its real

I'm 16f, verrryyyyy below average looking, or maybe we could just say, bad. And i mean BAD. With pimples that cover my face and whiteheads on my forehead, with dark circles as dark as the night sky, lips as pigmented as grey-beard loon who smokes 4 packs a day. Well, yes, there I was. As skinny as a stick that even the blind would refuse to behold. Alright enough about me.

But there she is, with lips so pink and nose so fine, I wonder if she's just a fragment of my imagination. Oh and wait? Another one? Damn even she looks so pretty, with short hair and cute face. Oh wait another one? Wtf her too?

I wonder why am I surrounded by such beautiful females around me. I vividly remember a guy approaching my friend whilst we were walking, wondering everyone merely made exasperated faces upon seeing my presence.
Another incident where my tuition teacher joyfully praised my friend who looked so pretty on her birthday, I got ready on mines too, but uhm. Lets just ignore the akward silence that everyone felt when i entered the room.

I'm not a bad person lol, i might be boring and ugly, but I am always cheerful even though i might have just cried because of my father. I can make you laugh too with my lame jokes. I can write poetry at times, even paint too. I can talk about books and music as well. Russian literature? German? (lmao dw im talking about Kafka) British? I can hear you talk about your favorites too.

Well, so its indeed a truth. Face card is real. Ive felt it all my life, ever since i was a kid. From being bullied and crying over my looks to just not caring, ive grown up though, undoubtedly I have.

ALSO PLEASE THIS IS NOT A VENT/RANT, IM JUST DISCUSSING OKAYY