Give the energy you get

I have to start following my own advice and giving the energy I receive in my relationship. Idk maybe I’m just in a mood today and my feelings are hurt. Today’s my birthday and like two months ago my girlfriend told me to take off and I was hesitant to because I didn’t just want to take off to sit around and do nothing. But she insisted we would do something for my birthday. Flash back to her birthday and many birthday’s before I always make sure it’s special. This past year for example I got us a hotel for the night, took us to dinner, gave her money to gamble in the hotel, got her a cake to sing at midnight, flowers, a card, a special gift, and took her to a water park she had been wanting to go to. It was a really fun and special day and we really enjoyed ourselves. I planned it all and the only involvement she had was me asking her if the plans sounded good to her. Now it’s my birthday, I took off of work, per her request and she is dead asleep still. We have no plans for the day unless she somehow has some huge surprise which I doubt bc 1. She is terrible at keeping secrets and 2. She kept asking me yesterday what I wanted to do today. It just kind of hurts my feelings I went above and beyond to plan a special day for her but I don’t get that in return even after she insisted I take off of work.

I’m also I guess a bit annoyed bc she is always broke even though she works full time and we make relatively the same amount (we both make decent salaries). Anyway she has poor money management skills and blew her paycheck when she got it. She borrowed money from her mom to get her hair done and I already had to pay her mom back for her to get her off her back so I’m kinda tight on money until I get paid this friday. Anyway my grandmom gave me a birthday card with money in it in front of my girlfriend and when we got home my girlfriend said she was hungry and I said I wasn’t that she could eat dinner alone. She said she was going to order something and asked if I wanted anything anyway and I said no. She then asked if I could pay for her food…. I said we had food in the freezer but her response was she didn’t want that… So I had to give her my money from my grandmom that was my birthday gift for her to get food. It’s just very annoying.

I guess it’s just also disappointing bc this just showed me she really isn’t even going to give me a card or anything if she really took my birthday money for food.

I’m just over putting so much energy into a relationship and not receiving the same. I swear I don’t expect much, but not even a card or flowers or literally a rock she picked up outside that made her think of me sucks.

Oh and she hasn’t even wished me a happy birthday yet….and she was awake laying in bed next to me on her phone after midnight last night… so there’s that.