I want out of my relationship

Forgive me if this is long but I need somewhere to rant/ someone to tell me if I’m the problem. My gf (25) and I (24) have been together for 5-1/2 years. In our relationship we’ve had sex maybe 10 times, with most of it being towards the beginning of our relationship. We stopped being intimate around 6 months in bc she said she wasn’t horny and having hormone issues. Okay that’s fine, she was supposed to go to a hormone doctor bc her primary thinks she has pcos and never did. This went on for years and I stayed and was silent about the lack of intimacy bc I love her / didn’t know that sexual incompatibility is a thing and didn’t think that was a reason to leave (young and dumb).

Now this has just gotten worse. On top of her unofficially diagnosed Pcos and hormone issues she now has a yeast infection that she has had since November 2023, over 9 months. This is apparently bc she was diagnosed with diabetes and it’s not under control. In this time (not purposefully) but I kind of found my voice in starting to voice my opinions on things and being more open with my sexual desires (I’m a very sexual person). I started to voice my desire to be intimate but when I do this she tells me I’m making her feel bad and don’t care about the issues she has going on (mind you I very much care, I tell her to make doctors appointments to get this stuff taken care of and under control but she never does, hence why she hasn’t gone to the hormone doctor in the five years since she was supposed to).

I basically broke down roughly 3 months ago and told her that I feel like we’re really just friends and roommates and not even dating bc we’re never intimate (I know sex isn’t what defines a relationship but to me it is important in one) and again we’ve only had sex about ten times in our 5+ year relationship. Well I guess this spoke to her bc after that she fucked me twice, which I now know was out of pitty. But since then it’s been dry again. I try and initiate and get shot down and told I don’t care about what she has going on. I try and explain to her that I do care and try to explain without sounding like a complete jerk that I basically I desire intimacy and that I think it’s important/ makes us feel closer/ is definitely one of my love languages. I ask her why if she doesn’t want me to touch her if she’s okay with just touching me for now and I’m told no that that doesn’t do anything for her. I said so I don’t turn you on? To which she said no not at all. Idk about you guys but going to town on my girl gets me hot and heavy so that really hurt my feelings. And not to mention there’s been times that I do her and she didn’t reciprocate and I was fine with that. It’s almost like she’s a touch me not and won’t admit it but also isn’t a top?? She also swears she’s not asexual but I really think she is, she is so weird and turned off my any intimacy. Like she won’t even make out with me and gets weird if I touch her butt/ boobs and also won’t touch mine.

Now she’s mad at me bc I said that hurt my feelings. I feel like the intimacy aspect of our relationship is never going to improve and in my heart I know that’s true, I mean we’ve only been intimate 10 times in over 5 years.

I’m at the point that I want to end things, which sucks bc I love her so much but at this point I’m just making the breakup harder by staying bc I know it’s coming. I’m just also in a situation where I don’t have a place to go if I end things bc the apartments in her name and I really can’t afford to get my own place (I make ~$55k a year but rent is so expensive where I live I can’t afford it on my own). My friend is supposed to try and get me into a community that I can afford and I’m hoping it goes through so I can time my breakup so I can move in there but idk if I can last that long / i feel selfish waiting on that, but I kind of also have to think about me.

This whole situation makes me feel like shit. I feel like a shitty person for being horny and wanting to be intimate with my girlfriend when she doesn’t. I feel shitty that my girlfriend doesn’t desire me. I feel shitty for staying in a relationship I very obviously want out of.

To all my young lesbians, stand up for yourself and your wants/needs in a relationship. If I would have found my voice earlier on I know I wouldn’t be in this mess. I guess I just didn’t know my value / worth. Now I do and it’s hard to get myself in a situation to start fresh so I can find that.

Any advice and thoughts are appreciated. Also please tell me if I’m a jerk in any of these scenarios so I can work on myself.