Today is my 22nd birthday and I'm still a virgin with no experience.

I never thought I would end up like this. Since I was in high school I always wondered when and how my first time would be and I never thought I would end up as a 22 year old virgin.

Words cannot describe how resentful I feel about it. When I go to the mall or bowling alley with my family, I see boys much younger than me with pretty girls.

Please don't tell me tell me that 22 is still very young. Yeah it's young, but it's NOT young to still be a virgin.

I fear that even if I become attractive and girls are interested in me, It'll be very bitter sweet and I'm not gonna be that happy about it. I feel like I'll even start playing with the hearts of girls and break them out of spite for years of rejection and ghosting and having to settle as a "late bloomer".

I'll keep on self improving and chasing my goals and dreams though.