I quit : 13-01-2025
Update and edit : (Someone commented ki is bandi ka lengthy chapters completed hai! I somehow agree with that kyuki 12th me all I need is revision and yeah I didn't focus ki mera kitna completed hai all I focused was on ki bc kaise hoga! And I cried over that shit some people here are genuinely good and genuinely supportive! Thankyou guys, I'll come back stronger and will shine brighter! Thanks for the kind words and the cruel too I needed both! And yeah I AM NOT QUITTING THAT EASILY NOW , I did think ki ab quit kar dungi par ab nhi!) and yeah I didn't come here for validation of strangers (changed some of my lines about suicide and stuff)
Hi! I am 17F (will turn 18 in march) , basically a dropper! Upar mera syllabus hai pura jisme tick laga hua hai who completed hai (lectures+class questions). I took a drop ki Bhai bhot badhiya se padhungi, faad dungi ye wo. Lekin it's me jo chutiya hai bhai. All I did was procrastinate in these whole 8 months.
Kyuki bhai genuinely nhi ho raha hai ab hamse. I told mumma ki dec mid Tak syllabus complete ho jayega, ho bhi jata lekin I fucking fucked up. It's January mid and maine neet prep ka test series liya hai jo 19Jan se shuru hai. Aur Mera syllabus hi complete nhi hai.
Everytime my mother says ki kab hoga bhai guilt kills me. It is killing me everyday and one day I'll genuinely leave this works before neet, nhi Raha jata strong yaar. I make strategies nhi follow kar paati mai, nhi ho raha.
Bhai kitna jyada syllabus bacha hai, upar se wo offline test series bhi le liya Maine ab to, why the hell is going on with me!
Ik ki agar exam hall se niklugi and If I say ki thoda aur padh leti I'll be guilt tripped.
Bhai I want to do mehnat lekin nhi kar paa rhi yaar, nhi ho raha genuinely.
I look at my dad and feel bad, I look at my younger self I feel bad. I look at my mother I feel I am betraying her. My family has high hopes from me rahe bhi kyu na I promised them ki doctor banungi. I promised myself ki doctor banungi. And if anyone can help like genuine Help please! I want to complete my syllabus jitna jaldi hi sake: "JANUARY END"
If I fail I would fail everyone.
and anyone saying "ek exam zindagi nhi hoti" mere liye hai bhai ye hai meri zindagi
(And I don't look forward to make friends , don't text "ham dost ban sakte hai kya")
(Please don't sympathise with me in the comments)
(And creeps please don't text ki "kitna logi" "nudes bhej do" bas kar bhai ladki hu sex worker nhi)