Just started yesterday. Worst ever

I'm not trying to source. I'm just stating my experience. I spent over 4 hours filling out paperwork. Then to be demonized cuz I'm an alcoholic told that if I smell like booze or anything I'm going to get breathalyzed and they won't dose me. They started me off at 20 and I still feel like living death. The worst part is I'm trying this cuz I want to get clean and get off the crap. Doctor told me I need to keep using from the next 3 months at least. Maybe by 4th month for I'll be able to stop using the boy/fetty. It's a bunch of stupid crap Sign me up for a bunch of extra curriculars. It completely ignored my request through my insurance to make sure that I can get there every day. I have a peer support that help me line up all this stuff we've been friends for like a year. And she like this one up for me and she was shocked how bad it was. They don't let you even get take home, it said that if you stay clean it takes a month. And you'll start earning them one every month. But when you hit one year you will only get five take-homes. I could talk for an hour I mean it's awful but I've tried everything else and I want to get my life together so I'm trying to end this you know decade long problem fast

Please forgive my typing I have nerve damage in my hands so it's talk to text

. All I can say is if you live in any Ohio please avoid CAAA