I think I’ve Irreparably Burned Myself Out

Based on other posts here I don’t think I’m alone in this feeling. We were raised to work hard, get the job done, put in the grind, get the promotions, get the raises, etc. For years I did this. Worked 80 to 100 hour weeks, have had massive amounts of stress, badly damaging my mental health, eat poorly and no time to exercise so physical health suffered as well. Only in the last couple years have I paused to ask……. Why?

I hate my job. I hate the field I work in. I dread work every day. But at this point I’m so fried, I can’t imagine doing ANYTHING because I’m just so over it. Maybe if I was able to just lay on a couch and stare at the ceiling for a few years I could recoup. But honestly I feel too burned out to even spend time on what used to be my hobbies.

I know part of this is probably some level of depression. And I have sought out professional help, and meet weekly with a therapist. But idk, just a rant and wondering if this resonates with anyone else.