I can't be the only one

[Trying here cause it got removed on the trans sub and I just need to know] I just need to know I'm not the only one here. I don't see anyone else talk about this anywhere and it scares me. This isn't a "HRT made me be able to cry again" situation, because while that is definitely true for me too, it isn't what I'm referring to. I can't go to my prescriber about this problem because there's a fairly good chance they'll try to take me off HRT.

Background Context:
This all started with Spiro, worsening with Progesterone as I just started taking it about a month ago.
I had derealization and occasional depersonalization when I was a child, it's been gone for years until now.
OCD is also something that runs in the family as well, and was something I dealt with growing up, but had been able to manage. Anxiety was an issue a few years ago two, but I had it under control.

What's actually happening:
Ever since starting Spiro, it's as if every mental illness I had just got turned up to 200%. Looking in mirrors on my "off-days" feels like blaring feedback into my brain. It physically hurts my head. I feel dizzy. She isn't me. The world around me feels numb, like its slipping away, as if I've just realized I'm in a lucid dream.
I get these horrible anxiety attacks throughout the week. A constant brain fog that turns into deafening static that overrides everything.
Pair that with the hormones firing up my emotions all the time and I just feel constantly stressed and overwhelmed, like a million people are just shouting at me at once. It's the constant agitation that only just makes me overly aggressive--to want to hurt someone. For legal reasons, I just stick to myself. Not to mention the paranoid OCD being an issue again, and the very mild hallucinations that have started to get more frequent and a little less mild each day.
I feel like I'm losing it. I wasn't like this, I could manage it before. It's affected my friendships too. No one told me this stuff would happen.

Why I wrote this:
I don't know what to do. This wasn't an issue before. My prescriber seems already cautious, and it I'm worried they'll sooner just take me off HRT than anything really. I'm seeing a psychiatrist pretty soon. Just hoping that goes well. I wrote this because I just need to know that someone else understands this. I can't be the only one. I've looked but can't find ANY posts about people's mental state responding to HRT this way. I wasn't like this. I don't want to be like this. I either ruin my mental health being who I want to be, or don't get to and...well its ruined by depression instead as all of that is undone.