How do you stay patient?

I am nearing 4 months on hrt and I’m currently closeted to pretty much everyone but my friends. Still dressing masculine has been hard on me mentally. Every day I day dream about the person I don’t see in the mirror. I have a rough timeline of my goals for the next few years with my transition but I know I won’t start feeling better for a while. What do you do to keep yourself from not sulking and being depressed? I’ve been doing good, I’m doing everything I’m supposed to. But im still going a little crazy