Being a forced permaNEET stuck in a cult

I'm 18 years old and I have never experienced life. My family are Jehovah's Witnesses. I have absolutely no faith in the "religion" whatsoever but I pretty much have to continue pretending to be and attending church every week (and more since my parents needs me to be an "exemplary" one) or else I'm probably getting kicked out of the house and shunned by my whole family. The only way out of this mess would be to obtain a career stable and profitable enough to live on my own, which I seriously doubt I'll be able to do. I got out of high school around 8 months ago. I have been looking for jobs ever since. Every single employer in my area, including McDonald's, has rejected me. There are no technical trade schools or apprentice ships in my area. (I live in a small town.) I am genuinely losing my mind being a NEET while also having to pretend like everything's fine to both my family and their "church". I don't enjoy anything anymore. Everything is boring. I don't think there's an escape anymore. I'm gonna be stuck like this until I rope.