Grandiosity is the best drug ever!!!!

Warning: extremely headass douchey rant but bruh I gotta tell someone!

Just spent the last 3 hours hanging out with my friend and her guy friend. The guy was very obviously attracted to me so already my supply levels getting topped off. But then the convo focuses on me and how I’m handling my relationship while talking to other people.

Both of them told me I’m too attractive/with too much personality and aura to be in a relationship and id never find someone who doesn’t get insecure with me. (My boyfriend is now spam calling/tracking my location/questioning if I’m dating friends). It’s always enjoyable when you already KNOW everything people tell you but when they just gas you all the way up that shit will never not be boring! I was full center of attention for the entire evening which isn’t to say it’s rare but maaaaan I always forget this good ass feeling when it wears off.

How could anyone possibly not see life as anything other than a fun simulator is beyond me. It’s definitely my privilege talking but I’m addicted to my life it’s too much fun!! Like if the validation is nonstop then the grandiosity is too😩😩

The way my mood instantly becomes 11/10 the moment I get that attention it’s like being a mini celebrity. ATP I need to really just monetize myself fully and get some sugar babies to pay for everything. How can I fully cut myself from narcissistic thinking/grandiose tendencies when it’s thrown in my face/validated every single day.