What does this even mean

So I feel asleep after eating dinner earlier and I had the horrible nightmare, I've forgotten some chunks but the whole thing felt so horrible and depressing and gritty. And I was in some kinda of club or program or smth idk and we got put in this weird elevator type box thing and everyone there was super scared and cold and it like chucked around like we where in a tornado simulation or smth and it was rlly loud and then I blacked out. I then woke up and left and went home feeling rlly rlly fucking upset and dizzy and my heart was POUNDING. I got home and I was sobbing and I felt rlly drunk? And again my heart felt insanely fucking fast I was stumbling around and I had this rlly bad feeling of what happened when I was blacked out. And like my lower half was all open and I could see my organs and my ribcage was protruding out of my skin weirdly. But yeah I looked closer and realised I had been 🍇 whilst blacked out (I've never been 🍇 so idk where that's come from. But yeah and throughout the dream I felt more and more drunk and my heart was beating insanely fast. And I couldn't find my friend anywhere online and I realised she'd blocked me as I went to go call her to tell her what happened and then I woke up. But it was strange and horrible and the heart and drunkenness thing was so weird bc when I woke up my heart was pounding abit but I wasn't drunk at all it was all so weird.