Was addicted to extreme porns

Hey there! I'll start my story right away. I'm 22. I've been addicted to pmo for several months this year. 'Months' might not be as shocking as you think. However, it indeed was too awful bcs I watched so many abnormal stuffs in that period. I also watched a bit disgusting ones(fetishes... and abu**ve ones). Things that common addicts may not reach... Darn it. I hate myself then. I KNEW the contents are far from the normal, but I tricked myself that it's not my real desire and I can always controll my mind over it. I was insane getting more & more dopamines. How shitty myself back then. Found my consciousness fully back. From then on, I've quit for over "3 months"! I've been struggling to fix my perceptions on sex and pleasure. In this step, what I couldn't expect came to my life. I am suffering from distorted sexual images in my dreams. I feel them as nightmares. I feel a lot anxieties and depressions as well. Actually, despite all these. I'm getting better as time goes by. Going outdoors, meeting friends, and working out. That's what's just happening to me. "Creating a brand-new neural path circuit". I'm gradually regaining energies. But, but, but. I truly hate the meaningless urges still popping up to those shitty images passing through my mind. They're irritating and still making me blame myself. Making me depressed. I've literally never watched any kind of those distorted stuffs from then on. I'm clearly doing whatever I can do as an addict, fighting the addiction. If there's anyone like me... please share your victories and spare some hopes for me!!