I Don't know what's happening

For the last few months there's been a huge suspicion of alters. But now I'm starting to think I was still in a sort of episode. Maybe I genuinely was misinterpreting my symptoms.

I feel so alone in the front again and every name that my alters have had feel fine for me to use or not to use. But at the same time they feel wrong, alongside my own name. But when i asked who I am i respond with the body's name.

Maybe the front door is closed? Maybe I'm front stuck? The usual triggers haven't worked for the alters I know triggers, I have trouble trying to see anyone, the train of thought i usually think that its someone else's feels like it's just mine now, then there's the complete feeling of isolation again in my head. Maybe they were never here to begin with and now I feel guilty and anxiety and fear