How to come to terms with being trans and christian??

Today at church I genuinely felt Jesus’s presence and love fill me and it gave me confidence to be who I truly am. But then the church handed me a pamphlet and book after the service and it condemned anything remotely lgbtq. Is this a sign? Idk I’ve always had a deep fear that what if the conservatives are right and I’m wrong? How do I come to terms with this fear?