Does anyone else gaslight themselves into thinking you don’t have PMDD in luteal?

OK so everything went quite well for two or three months and I literally thought it was gone but surprise surprise, after some weeks off during Christmas and not having a routine and drinking a lot etc it’s back! And now I realise I am gaslighting myself into thinking I don’t have PMDD. Like my brain is saying: ‘yeah sure, you’re just looking for an excuse, you don’t actually have PMDD or anything literally that could bother you’

Does anyone else experience this? Thank you!