Broke up with my boyfriend during an episode.

I'm so so exhausted. I'm so tired of being too much. Of pushing people away during episodes. But I needed him during a panic attack, and he couldn't even call me. He knew i wasn't safe because I was driving and he couldn't put his food down. He heard me sobbing and saying I cant breathe and his response was "its ok. Breathe". I thought I was going tk crash and die.

And on top of that he got annoyed at me for not picking his calls up when I eventually said why won't you ring me, and became sarcastic and rude whilst I was still in the episode.

So yeah. I'm too much for him. So we're done.

And I just feel like I cant keep going. I feel hopeless and alone. I haven't spoken to anyone with pmdd and adhd, I feel super alone amd shitty, but it'd help to know im not alone