I have been having DMT Level Experiences while Completely Sober. | Questions on Sober Entheogenic Exploration

Over the course of roughly the past year I have had several profound psychedelic breakthrough like experiences whilst in a completely sober state that are bear an extreme qualitative resemblance to various tryptamine substances such as LSD, Psilocybin and especially DMT.

For context I have 10 years of experience with daily nondual meditation and have had peak nondual unitive experiences as a result. I have 7 years of experience with psychedelics including THC, Psilocybin, LSD, and DMT and have had several breakthrough experiences. I only do psychedelics 3 times per year. As well as 10 years of contemplation experience and have read hundreds of books on spirituality, psychology, science, etc over the past decade. I have essentially dedicated my life to nondual understanding and as a result of all of this work I experienced an extremely profound and ineffable shift in my consciousness in mid 2021 wherein I directly perceived and experience myself as completely unified with all phenomena in the totality of existence. I see and feel all of reality no matter how “mundane” to be profound beyond description. All of reality is seen as an infinite dream that I (you, there is no difference) the infinite intelligence of the godhead is imagining into being. I have lived in this nondual experience relatively consistently for the past 3 or so years.

With this context provided I can only guess that the spontaneous DMT like experiences I have been having are a result of the neurological changes that occur with nondual realization and long term meditative practice. Allow me to explain how these states come on. The first time this occurred it was around 3:00 at night. I had awoken from my sleep to use the bathroom. When I laid down I was having trouble getting back to sleep. So I laid in bed waiting to fall asleep. Then I looked over at my bookshelves and when I did I saw that entire side of my room morphing and glistening with thousands of rippling colors across the books and walls with semi organic and semi geometric patterns forming and dissolving. I had not taken any substances in 3 or 4 months when this occurred. I thought I was dreaming. I did not understand how this was possible as I was completely sober. I had to be up for work in a few hours and I knew I didn’t have the luxury of deeply investigating this at the time so I decided to roll over and close my eyes to sleep. Interestingly the visuals subsided when my eyelids were closed, however the psychedelic and profound head space remained. This was the first of several much more profound sober psychedelic experiences.

Fast forward months later and I started to add lucid dreaming to my spiritual practice. Some time into my work with lucid dreaming I became more familiar with the world of my dreamscapes and some of the mechanisms of my mind. On one of these nights I was doing my typical routine for lucid dream exploration. Again at around 3 or 4 in the morning another one of these DMT like experiences occurred. I was not fully asleep. I was still aware and alert that I was in my room laying on my bed. But I was close to the hypnagogic state. This is when everything began to shift. I heard the exact same ringing in my ears as when I’ve smoked DMT. Then my vision began to intensely distort and fill with hundreds of beautiful colors and geometric mandalas. My sense of self quickly began to dissolve and ultimately be obliterated as I faded into the absolute unity of the imagination of the mind of God. This unity of consciousness and intensity of unconditional love was several orders of magnitude even more profound than the unity consciousness that I feel in my daily life. I went from perceiving the thousands of mandalas in my experience to literally becoming the thousands of mandalas of this DMT like experience. I was billions of lightyears in size and I was shifting and transforming at a rate of thousands of iterations per second. I was an infinite menagerie of forms creating an infinite menagerie of worlds throughout the multiverse and beyond. And in my curiosity I would zoom in my perspective on some of these worlds (being aspects of myself) that I brought into being to witness the forms in them and then shift back out to a macro perspective. However this experience ended as quickly as it began. The intensity of the mandala transformations began to subside and my consciousness began to shift from cosmic magnitude back to that of an individuated being, however the feeling of unity and beauty remained, it was less amplified however. Eventually my consciousness shifted back to that of a human experience and I was looking at the darkness of my closed eyelids. The feeling of peace I felt was all pervading and reinvigorating. I then woke up to record and explore my recent experience in detail.

These are two abridged versions of several experiences I had like this. There have been a few other sober DMT level experiences I have had where I communicated with loving and alien like psychedelic entities but that is far too much to go into here.

My main questions are these.

1 Have any other experienced mediators or psychonauts experience a similar phenomenon? I have heard Terrence McKenna and Ken Wilber reference monks who when given LSD, DMT or Ayahuasca remark that those psychedelic states were very similar to the sober states that these monks experience in their own practices.

2 I also wanted to know if anyone knows of methods that would allow me to enter these experiences more consistently and reliably? As while extremely profound they are very fleeting, fading even faster than N,N-DMT most of the time.

3 I am specifically interested in if it may be possible to access these states to go directly to the Godhead; beyond all manifest form? I have experienced my consciousness shift into that of the Godhead knowing that the totality of all of existence is a dream occurring within the mind of God, created to explore and experience itself forever. However I have only directly experienced the Absolute Unmanifest Godhead a few times. I wanted to know if I could use these sober DMT like states to go beyond illusory form and directly to the Godhead more consistently. If so, how?

One thing I feel important to note is the following. Whilst I have several years of experience with psychedelics and have access to entheogens to assist me. Ever since my shift into consistent nondual perception a few years ago something interesting has become apparent. In all of breakthrough experiences after 2021 I've had encounters and conversations with tryptamine entities, alien consciousnesses and soul guides and most of them at some point have said some variation of this; “you did not need to use this substance to get here, you can experience this and beyond through yourself.” I have also had a few entities say that; I was actually slowing down my spiritual progress by insisting on using a substance as a “middleman” to access transcendent psychedelic states. I did not think this was possible until these experiences started spontaneously happening to me while sober. I am not in any way denouncing psychedelics but something novel is happening in my spiritual development and I want to explore it responsibly; and I want to heed the messages I have received from the very intelligent and wise beings I have encountered through my prior trips. I would appreciate any help or insights that people here may have.