My DevMode guilt

Hi! Never posted here, so it's high time to change that.

I have a confession to make. I can't play without DevMode. It might sound silly, but it somehow feels as if I'm someone worse, because I play with DevMode on. I have over 1100 hours on record. Just casually strolling in lightly modded experience with CE and more guns variety (I'm a gun enthusiast :P ), but I can't shake off that feeling of guilt and fraud.

I tried to justify it to myself - I am a deity to my colonists, so whenever SHTF I feel obligated to cast some "divine intervention", so my little guys don't experience too much abuse, whereas I don't get frustrated over wasted time on ruined colony. In fact I feel so much attachment to my colonists that I can't bear with any loss (in fact, even pets get pampered - usually my SO names them, and I can't tell her that a pet she named died in-game). Yet it didn't help me with still feeling bad.

Whenever I see gameplays, survival mega-bases or pimped-out hyper-pawns in decades-old saves, I grow both jealous and disappointed in myself. At the same time knowing I shouldn't perceive it that way. Is there anything that can stop that feeling?